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Light my Fire

Posted in Holistic Healing, WAHM, Yoga by Alissia on November 2, 2009

I took a 5 month hiatus from my blog. I began a yoga teacher training in June and that has occupied most of my free time since. I love it! I’m writing essays again. This time, I am actually learning from them. It takes me about a week to write one five page essay. It’s a bit different from college. The essays I wrote then were written the night before into the wee hours of the morning. Then I had all the time in the world and didn’t know it. Now, essays, readings, and training classes must be scheduled and squeezed in between playing house and dropping Kira off at preschool. Life is different, but life is good!

I have missed the blog though. It is a great way for me to work out my thoughts. I am currently working through some thoughts regarding my website and my creative endeavors. I thought the blog might be a good place to do that. I have come to the conclusion that I am going to change my jewelry to make it more affordable. I want to change it in a way that I can still feed my soul while I am creating it. I’m thinking of bringing yoga into it somehow. I think that is a few months away because I am letting those ideas simmer for awhile to see what I come up with.

I have also decided to make some candles to bring in a little extra money. I bought all the supplies, thinking it was going to be a piece of cake. NOT SO!! I have a very holistic approach to the way I live my life. I thought I would approach candle making in that same way. I bought palm wax from a company that guarantees it is sustainable, harvested in an environmentally sound manner. I chose palm wax because paraffin throws harmful chemicals into the air and soy wax is made from soybeans. Soybeans are almost always genetically modified and I do not want to support that in any way, shape, or form. I also am trying to scent them with essential oils instead of synthetic, chemical fragrances…notice I said trying. Therein lies my problem. I have been experimenting with essential oils (and high quality ones too) for a few weeks now. I can not get my candles to “throw” scent while burning. ARGH!!! It’s driving me nuts and costing me too much money. I am almost to the point of wanting to give in and use chemical fragrances…but no, I can’t. I can’t contribute more chemicals to the world…something just won’t let me. A familiar phrase helps when frustration sets in…if at first you don’t succeed, try, try again. I’m gonna try again a couple more times before I give up. By give up, I mean produce candles that are much more lightly scented than I would like. They will still be cute when I’m through with them. If you have any advice for how to make them more scented without using chemical fragrances, I would be happy to hear it! Wish me luck!

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I’m Back

Posted in Flowers, Kira, photography, Yoga by Alissia on May 21, 2009

Wow! It’s been quite awhile since I have written. Try as I might, I just can’t keep up with everything. I was completely sidelined by a cold that has been knocking me around since right before mother’s day and is still hanging on. I think that it’s at least partially a detox reaction from all of the things I have been doing to rid myself of the Candida. It’s been about 2 weeks now and I’m feeling better, but am ready for this to be gone!!

I am beginning my year long yoga teacher training course in June. I’m so excited! I know I am going to learn so much. I am debating about whether or not to Blog my essays and experiences. I think it might be good for me, but some topics can be really personal…I’m not sure if I want that displayed all over the internet. I have been thinking that I might do it anonymously…we’ll see. I have already finished my first essay and spoken with the director of the program about the lifestyle changes that I want to make over the course of this year. I have a list of ten personal things that I would like to work on. I am trying to approach this with a completely open mind and by being completely honest with myself. I have barely started the program and yet, the questions pop up. I’m going to hold off on discussing the actual issue that I’m working on right here, but the response was this…that I am in the wrong because I expect too much. I should not have expectations. Yikes! Really? I thought that was part of being human. Humans have expectations. I’m not sure how to live my life without expecting things from people and from events. I guess this will be the first experiment.

The interaction with my new teacher also started me thinking about how much of yogic philosophy comes from a woman’s point of view…my guess is not much, if any. All of the yogis who wrote all of these ancient texts were men, right? Things change a bit when coming from a woman’s perspective. This I know for sure. Women come from a much more feeling – centered place. Would yogic philosophy be different if more women were involved from the beginning? My guess is, yes, a little bit. I am just beginning my yoga journey, so I don’t pretend to know much about yogic philosophy yet. I’m just asking questions…that’s part of any educational journey. One of the things that I learned so well in college was to look deeper…take nothing at face value. I plan to take all of the information like a sponge, absorb what I need, and squeeze out the rest. I think that any path you take needs to be adapted to work for you as a person.

I think that’s all I have to say on that for now. I am realizing that with summer coming and a yoga teacher training starting, I may have less time to work on the blog and website. I’m going to do the best that I can to keep up. Overachiever? Who? Yeah, that’s me. Anyway, this is for my family that may check my blog to see what’s going on, I thought I would share some photos from our Mother’s Day weekend in New Jersey…Gallery style….you can look if you’re not family too. Just click on the photos and they will enlarge.

Decisions. Decisions.

Posted in Yoga by Alissia on April 25, 2009

All day I was trying to think about what to write about tonight. If I keep my blog up to date, then not only do I have a chance of gaining more readers, but I will also have a journal of how I did things when I was starting my business. Maybe later on, I can help someone else who happens to be where I am now. Anyway, I think I am going to talk about something that has been getting in the way of my creative thinking.  I have been weighing a decision for the last few weeks and it’s really starting to get to me. I want to just make a decision and get it over with. To me, this is a really important decision and that’s why I have been agonizing over it for awhile. I am looking into yoga teacher training programs. I want to become a yoga teacher to further my own practice and to help others develop a practice that works for them. There are a few different studios I am looking into and all the programs seem to be great, but each have their own pros and cons.

1) There is a teacher training intensive that I have been looking into in Pittsburgh. I have been in touch with the teacher and she is really welcoming and kind on the phone.

PROS:

a. The teacher seems wonderful.

b. The training is an intensive, so it isn’t a year long commitment. There are two week long intensive sessions, two Friday night workshops, and a fall weekend retreat intensive.

c. I went to college in Pittsburgh and could stay with friends while I’m there.

CONS:

a. The training is in Pittsburgh, a little over 300 miles from where I live. I will have to travel there twice, once in June and once in August.  The weekend retreat is even further from me at the Olmsted Retreat.

b. I will still have to search out 2 more workshops to take and find a teacher close to my home who is willing to let me student teach.

c. Tuition is low, but doesn’t include any books, the retreat, or extra workshops.

d. Since the training is in Pittsburgh, any friendships that I make in training will have to be long distance friendships.

e. Since the training is an intensive, will I learn all that I have to learn to be a yoga teacher in such a short amount of time?

f. I will have to be away from my daughter for 2 weeks (one week at a time) and find child care for both weeks as well as the weekend retreat.  My mom has offered, but something could always come up.

g. I will not be able to visit the space or meet the teacher before training begins in June. 

2) Another option is the Yogalife Institute teacher training. I took a class there on Wednesday.  The class was great, the staff was great, and they had quite a large bookstore for such a small space.

PROS:

a. The owner/teacher is quite knowledgeable.  He has a PHD in yoga, I believe, and owns Yoga Living Magazine.

b. The program seems to be really comprehensive and I have no doubt that I would learn an incredible amount about yoga, yoga philosophy, and a yoga lifestyle.

c. It is close to my home.

d. Friends that I would make would also be close to my home.

e. They have a rolling admissions policy that would allow me to start in May if I want to.

CONS:

a. The program is a year long.  I would love to be done sooner, for my own personal reasons.  If this were a 7 or 8 month program, I would jump right in.

b. Childcare…not sure if I can get it all covered.  There is one Saturday, two Fridays, a workshop…I don’t have it all clear yet.  Nonetheless, I will have to work out childcare consistently for a year.

3) The yoga studio I recently joined, and really like, also has a teacher training program.

PROS:

a. I really like the studio and teachers.  I’m still new there and it takes me a little while to warm up, but I feel pretty comfortable there.

b. I know the instructors really want their students to learn yoga…mind, body, and spirit.  They do facilitate a meditation practice even in their daily yoga classes.

c. It’s close to my home.

CONS:

a. I missed their 2009 program and would have to wait until March 2010 to begin my teacher training. ( I think this is the only con for this program…but it’s a big one for me.)

4) There is another option…but I think that even as I write this, I have made my decision.

Wow!  I wish I had written this a week ago.  That was so helpful to me to write out all the pros and cons.  I think that I will go with the Yogalife Institute program.   There is only one real con…the year commitment.  The con is also a pro because I’m not sure that I would learn what I need to learn in an intensive anyway.  Hopefully, they will accept me.  I left my yoga mat at the studio on Wednesday….What kind of future yoga teacher leaves behind one of the only tools she needs?  The kind of future yoga teacher who thinks she will be late to pick up her daughter from preschool, that’s who!

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The Good, The Bad, and the Bunny

Posted in Flowers, Jewelry, Yoga by Alissia on April 4, 2009
Magnolias

Magnolias

Since I didn’t have time to write yesterday, I think I will start there. It was a really beautiful day in terms of finding food for my soul. First, I made up my mind that I was going to get some pictures of the magnolia trees in bloom. I just had to. The magnolias are only around for such a short time that I had to try to capture their essence on “film.” Of course, you can’t capture the fragrance in a picture so it’s much better to be there to see and smell them.

Then, I was in my car, all by myself (which is very rare, might I add) and my husband called me to tell me there is a rainbow just ahead. Sure enough…there it is! I get very excited by rainbows…almost emotional. They are just such a reminder of all that is good and beautiful in the world. I almost brought my camera too, but didn’t.

Lastly, and an amazing end to any day, was the monthly 2 hour candlelight yoga class. I joined this particular studio last month because I was intrigued by a candlelight yoga class once a month. It really is phenomenal! There is a short class on yogic practices in the beginning of the class, then the yoga practice itself, and then there is extra meditation time at the end. You leave the class feeling energized and whole once again. It makes me happy I am making the decision to follow this path.

Necklace from the materials I bought the other day

Necklace from the materials I bought the other day

Then we get to today…a little different than yesterday. Today began with lots of doubt and frustration. I kept looking at the necklace that I made from the materials I bought the other day and feeling that it just wasn’t right. Is it too boring? I know there are a lot of jewelry makers out there so my pieces have to be interesting. I know I am just at the beginning of this venture and absolutely have to get a thicker skin. I need to take some classes so that I can take my work to the next level. There is only so far I can go with bead work, because woven work and seed beads just aren’t my style. I really want to incorporate more wire and metal into my jewelry. I feel that’s what is necessary to keep my pieces looking modern and young. So sometimes I doubt myself a bit and then I talk myself out of it….you can do this!

Today I had frustration with the business part of this endeavor as well as the artistic part. I am not finding it easy to find craft shows where I can sell my stuff. I guess I just didn’t realize how competitive it was. It’s hard to find the info you need to even find craft shows. Many of the deadlines for this summer’s shows are already past. I’ve never done a craft show before, so I’m not sure I want to do a juried show yet. I would like my first one to be close to home, not too small, not too big…laid back. It seems like the craft show people take this stuff very seriously. Don’t get me wrong, I take myself seriously, but come on!!

And then…there is all the internet marketing stuff I have to learn. What have I gotten myself into? There it is again..you can do this!! I chose to do things this way…to learn as I go. I guess all of this doubt and frustration is all part of the learning process. I would rather go through it and learn from it, than stay in one place and live my life afraid of being a failure.

The bright spot in my day…Kira. I took her to the library to take a picture with the bunnies from the Luv-N-Bunns bunny rescue center. This was the best bunny I have ever seen. He just sat there and had his picture taken with all of these kids. He didn’t try to hop away or anything. Of course, Kira was the child that wanted to pick the bunny up. As I tried to take her picture, I could see her start to struggle. I was the only one who knew how badly she wanted to pick up that bunny. She ended up not moving the bunny…I don’t think she knew how heavy it was going to be.

This is Kira trying to pic up the bunny instead of just getting her picture taken like everyone else.

This is Kira trying to pic up the bunny instead of just getting her picture taken like everyone else.

I guess from now on I will have to do a better job of keeping up with my posts…this is rather long. Kira is telling me it’s time for the tea party…I’ll let you know how it is.

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